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OUR WEDDING, PART II: A WEEKEND OF MAGIC, ALL THE DETAILS LEADING UP TO THE CEREMONY!

Oh me oh my, how to describe our wedding day? In words, in photos, in video? It’s so hard to capture the true essence of what we felt on that day, but between those three things I feel it is definitely possible.

First of all, can I just say how cool it is to be able to share such special moments with you guys? I have had this blog for six years, so I have documented my ups and downs, extremely single years, years where I dated toxic people, my journey through sickness and health, many business ventures and very many intimate musings. All in all, to be able to share my WEDDING to the love of my life with you guys, as well as our entire relationship leading up to this point… is so damn cool.

I mean, my first podcast episode with Jonathan in 2016 documents our friendship BEFORE we were dating, and so many of you guys called it that there was an undeniable connection and flirtation between us. And now… here we are. Marriage! Magic! The most special day of our lives thus far! To be able to share it with you guys is everything to me — you are all my extended family, my friends from afar.

AHHH!!

Okay, so let me just begin with Thursday night — arriving to Ojai. And if you haven’t read my first wedding recap yet about how I was feeling on our wedding day, check that one out here to set the tone!

All photos taken in this post are by Tynan Daniels & Tony Modugno of Via Imagery. They are amazing and I HIGHLY RECOMMEND THEM FOR ANY / ALL WEDDINGS!!!!

Thursday Night, Arriving to Ojai!

So we got to Ojai on a Thursday, and when we arrived all of my pain, Lyme symptoms, nerves and apprehensions literally melted away. We were shown into our bridal suite, and our jaws basically dropped to the floor. We’ve stayed at the Ojai Valley Inn many times before, but the bridal suite was actual magic. Multiple rooms, a huge magical bedroom, two gorgeous patios (one of them overlooking the Farmhouse — our wedding venue!), and of course a massive bathtub of my dreams.

Jen, the amazing consultant at the hotel who we’d been working with all year, had champagne and cold green juice waiting for us in an ice bucket. I mean, DOES SHE KNOW US OR DOES WE KNOW US?! We popped some champagne and juice on the patio at golden hour and reality started to sink in — WE. ARE. GETTING. MARRIED. THIS. WEEKEND. WHAT. IS. LIFE?!??!

I have to say, even the most intense pain and Lyme symptoms could not possibly flourish or function in a situation like that. It was heaven. On a huge, gorgeous balcony overlooking our wedding venue, at our favorite hotel in the world, nestled into the stunning mountains of Ojai valley, our best friends and our parents in all of the buildings and rooms surrounding us, watching the sun go down while toasting to our wedding weekend. Just IMAGINE THE SCENE! It was GLORY!

That night, we went to dinner in downtown Ojai with six of our closest friends. We ended up at a cute place called Sage Ojai (because our favorite place, the Hip Vegan was closed that night randomly!) and it was perfect. We told stories, ate yummy food, practiced our first kiss for them (Jonathan dropped me in our practice dip, LOL), talked about how amazing the next few days would be, and got hyped up for the weekend.

Later that night our friends, my parents, my parents’ friends, and some family who was already in town came over to our bridal suite for wine in bathrobes to kick off the weekend. Honestly, that night in our suite was one of my favorite memories in my life to date. It was just so perfect, so relaxed, so full of love. I could have stayed there with them for all of time. We told stories from high school (so many of my best friends have been in my life since childhood), laughed, drank (they did — I didn’t even need alcohol to feel drunk on life and amazing), and soaked in this weekend finally arriving.

That is my number one tip to anyone getting married! Treat your entire wedding weekend as if it is your wedding day. Soak it all in. The day itself will fly by in an instant, but the weekend is yours to enjoy. Make every moment count — have the deep conversations you crave with everyone who came out to celebrate you. Look around, grab your partner who you’re MARRYING, and take a moment to soak in the community and love you’ve created — that’s YOURS! It’s yours forever!! Cherish it!

By the time it was about midnight or 12:30 I think everyone in the room was like, “Okay Jordan has to go to bed,” LOL because everyone knows that I struggle with chronic fatigue/exhaustion from Lyme and after putting my ALL into feeling healthy and well for our wedding, it would be awful to be too exhausted to enjoy the rest of the weekend.

So we went to bed, and Friday even more magic began!!!!

Friday Day & Night, Rehearsal Dinner & After Party!

Friday morning we woke up and looked at each other and said, “How will today even top last night? Last night was PERFECT.” But somehow we knew it absolutely would.

More and more of our friends and family were arriving at the hotel, and we could see them from our balcony so we shouted our hellos to them and some of them came up to see our suite. Jonathan and I had a cozy morning on our balcony, in our robes, finishing our VOWS (separately, of course), and sipping on green juice and decaf coffee. It was… actual heaven. There was angel light everywhere. Pure magic. Again… moments to keep soaking in!

From there, I am pretty sure we went to get smoothies at the spa cafe with our friends and visited the Farmhouse location to show those of them who hadn’t seen it yet! The whole thing was basically a whirlwind! I think I was just saying over and over, “Oh my god. All of my favorite people in one place. This is perfect. What is life!”

Then we came back to our room to shower and get ready for the rehearsal!! My mom’s friend Jen (and my friend!) who was my hairdresser beginning from age 11 was there for the weekend, and she came over to do my hair that night! She is so talented and put some fun barrettes in my hair with some fun waves (very Dorit RHOBH most recent reunion style if you know what I mean) and I felt so GLAM. I put on my sparkly dress that I picked out at BHLDN earlier this year (in January!!) and had my bridesmaids over so we could all go to the rehearsal together!

Things were starting to feel REALLY REAL at this point!!!! We got to the rehearsal at the Farmhouse and saw so many people we hadn’t seen yet — my sister, brother in law, nieces, brother, KELSEY our reiki master and wedding officiant!!! Tynan our photog and dear friend!!! Max our videographer!! And Jonathan’s groomsmen!! And our flower girls!! JUST AHHHH! There are not even words to describe.

I am pretty sure I blacked out while our wedding planner was going over the details with our wedding party because I was just staring at everyone in this environment and feeling completely in awe. I was holding our niece Chloe (one of our flower girls) and just feeling so full of love for everyone and every thing that had gotten us to this point.

The rehearsal itself was so special — pairing our bridesmaids and groomsmen for the first time (you better believe we came up with the pairings months ago, and each one felt totally perfect and serendipitous) and watching them walk down the aisle.

Even doing the REHEARSAL walking down the aisle with my dad was EMOTIONAL AS EVER!! He was definitely crying — Byron gets very emotional and it is so, so sweet. We went over some more details for the next day, and then we headed to the rehearsal dinner.

The rehearsal dinner was EVERYTHING!! It was in this beautiful garden area at the Ojai Valley Inn, and they set it up completely perfectly for us. It radiated the best vibes. String lights, candles, flowers, garden magic. It was so fun chatting with everyone who came — we had about 80 people there, because between our families and bridal parties and select dear friends who we invited… the number added up quickly!

The SPEECHES were such an amazing part of the rehearsal dinner night. We had our friends do somewhat of a “roast” of us (originally we were going to do a full-blown roast but we decided against it last minute because roasts can get very raunchy, lol) and it was absolutely amazing. They all roasted/toasted us and so many of them had us rolling on the ground laughing.

My best friends for LIFE (literally, we’ve been friends since we were children) Katie and Danielle did an EMINEM STYLE RAP to “Just Lose It” with PERSONALIZED JORDAN LYRICS!! I need to post the lyrics to the blog in their very own blog post!! It was literally amazing!!! I still can’t even believe they did this and pulled it off so flawlessly. I will never forget one single moment of it.

My mom had an EPIC speech, all about how I am the opposite of the daughter she always thought she would have and the girly, fashion loving, shopping obsessed daughter she dreamed of… but how our relationship is so much more than she ever could have fathomed and that we are the best of friends in the world.

My best friends from college Alexi & Clare had an amazing joint speech with so many hilarious and special memories — not to mention Alexi’s memories of me and Jonathan’s relationship turning into a couple… as she has witnessed it every step of the way!

My other half JORDAN DORSO had a speech that brought me to tears. He is truly my brother and has been for so long. The love I have for him in my heart is like no other. And my dear friend Anya shared the best memories from high school and so many tidbits about me that people now wouldn’t believe (we were wild- very wild. LOL!).

Jonathan’s groomsmen had incredible speeches too. Hilarious ones and ones that moved us to tears. I will never, ever forget the words that were shared that night.

After dinner and speeches, we all went to a pub at the hotel called Jimmy’s and it was SO MUCH FUN!! We got to see a bunch of people who had arrived that day/night that we hadn’t seen yet, and we basically filled out the whole bar/restaurant. It was an UNFORGETTABLE night.

Again, a night that made it so, so hard to believe or fathom that the following night / day could be even better.

That night, we got back to our bridal suite around 12:30 or 1am and Jonathan stayed to tuck me into bed and chat before we parted ways officially until our first look the next day. I am so glad we decided to stick with that tradition even though I must have faltered on it a million times- thinking it would be so hard not to sleep next to him that night knowing what a huge day we had the next day!!!

That is my second big tip — sleep separately if you’re up for it!! It makes the heart grow fonder, and makes it super special to see each other for the very first time the next day either during the first look or during the ceremony. And I love that it keeps tradition alive. Weddings are all about tradition, even if you make them completely your own, so it’s fun to draw in traditions that people have been doing for centuries.

Third tip is, don’t skimp on the speeches! At the rehearsal AND wedding! We had received some advice to keep the speeches on the shorter end (with fewer people speaking) and we didn’t listen to it. I am SO GLAD we did what felt right to us, because the speeches are something I will remember forever. Jonathan and I both love speeches at other people’s weddings (and rehearsal dinners) too, so this was a no brainer for us as a couple!

The Wedding DAY!!!! & NIGHT!!

My angels, my lights. <3

Waking up on Saturday morning was a feeling like NO OTHER. I knew it was about to be the biggest, most special, most unbelievable day of my life ahead and I could hardly even wrap my mind around it.

Because I do have trouble sleeping, I took a pill to sleep the night before… and I am glad I did, because I did get good sleep and felt really rested. I called room service for green juice and decaf coffee (I had to explain that I was the bride, because they tried to say I couldn’t customize a green juice without fruit and MAMA WASN’T HAVIN’ THAT on that day!!! The moment they realized I was getting married on property that day, they accommodated! LOL), with a side of almond milk.

I decided I was going to eat super light that day, for no reason other than that my stomach is VERY SENSITIVE, and I was NOT about to risk not feeling 100% or having my IBS flare up on that day of all days. So I sipped my juice, a bit of decaf (because decaf coffee makes my soul happy), and decided to wait until I was hungry to eat any solid food.

My mom came over to give me something (I don’t even remember what?) and we chatted for at least an hour about the amazing night beforehand. In typical Jordan fashion I had plans to hand write my vows into my little vow notebook that morning before my bridesmaids and hair/makeup crew came over, which is HILARIOUS because my vows were extremely long and there was no chance I was handwriting them in anything less than five hours, lol.

So I started doing that, took a quick shower, and then hair and makeup arrived to set up! Doing hair was my dear friend Kelcey Barrad who I grew up with, and makeup was my friend Brittany who has been doing my makeup for TBB for years!! I highly recommend them both.

While they set up, my bridesmaids arrived at our 10:00am set time — which was something I fought hard for in our schedule that day because I know myself and A) I like to sleep in and be rested, B) I didn’t want to be stressed at all in the morning or use too much energy early on in the day, and C) I LOVED the idea of everyone having a leisurely morning and not feel forced to be somewhere super early. I wanted the vibe of the day to be CHILL, blissful, fun, relaxing, and full of love and joy… and I feel like that is exactly what we cultivated!

My bridesmaids and I started the day by pulling ANIMAL SPIRIT CARDS (this is the deck we love, at the top of my Amazon book page!) which is our favorite tradition ever since pulling cards together in Tulum at my bachelorette. It’s become kind of our thing. I pulled two cards that day… one was the DEER, and one was the BUTTERFLY. Very fitting! Transformation being one of the main themes, as well as gentleness… which is my theme of the decade and my overall healing theme right now.

That is tip number 4… keep the vibe CHILL, if you are able to. Sometimes it can feel like WORK to be in someone’s wedding, and that is the LAST thing I wanted. I wanted everyone to enjoy the day and truly feel the magic of the process and all of us being together. And do things that you love that are quintessential you… hence why we pulled animal cards in the morning, and started “late” in the morning as far as weddings go!

Then, it was time to start getting ready! We did hair and makeup all afternoon, and it was honestly so much fun. I look back on those hours together so fondly and I always will — the vibe was chill and so happy, and I was surrounded by my BEST FRIENDS. Love that my mama was a part of it all too. (She is one of my best friends too, duh.)

Hilariously enough, I was still trying to record my vows! LOL. IT WAS NOT HAPPENING. I could not focus. So thank GOD the hotel was so, so accommodating because I ended up asking if they could print my vows really tiny to fit in my vow notebook, which they were totally able to do. I cut it down to the wire, but crisis averted.

MY FIRST LOOK WITH MY BRIDESMAIDS. THE BEST MOMENT EVER.

I was also trying to finish (or let’s be real – start) this special scrapbook of marriage and love advice I was putting together for Jonathan from our parents and siblings, and again — there was no time! What was I thinking?!?! Thank god for my BFF Danielle (and Maid of Honor) who put the entire scrapbook together for me while we got ready. And for Jillian & Katie (also my Maids of Honor) for pasting my vows into the vow notebook!

Tip number five is- ask for help when you need it! Your people are there to help YOU on your wedding day, and they want to!!! They are waiting for tasks! I was so blown away by the love and help I received on that day, and I really, really needed it. Leaning into that support also made me feel so loved and so taken care of. It was true magic.

REIKI!

Not to mention, during getting my makeup done with Britt, Kelsey did reiki on me. It was honestly so special and so sacred. I was already feeling so good and so calm relatively, but I needed that extra zen. I definitely felt the DAY OF JITTERS, and the day was FLYING by in the blink of an eye. I wanted to slow down, and feel the support of my angels. So that is exactly what Kelsey helped me cultivate. It was amazing.

This moment with my BFF Jill… after she gave me such a special card. Truly indescribable.

During all of that, we got the robe photos of my dreams out on the balcony and on the stair case… and then it was time to do my FIRST LOOK WITH MY DAD!!!!

To be real, my dad had already seen my dress… he was actually one of the main people who picked it out! But I was so, so excited for this first look with him in my full hair, makeup, day of ensemble. My day and I are extremely close, and I am the youngest of four children. So I am his baby. He has always treated me that way, and has always taken extremely good and special care of me. He has warned Jonathan many times, “Do you KNOW what you’re getting into?!?!? She’s a princess!” Lol…

Our first look was incredibly special. And so US. My dad was shouting at me from around the corner, “DO NOT LET YOUR DRESS DRAG ON THE GROUND! THERE IS DIRT AND MUD OVER HERE!” So I was laughing hysterically before I even rounded the corner, but then when I saw him… it was perfection. He cried, I teared up, my mom and him gifted me a GORGEOUS diamond necklace that was made out of her first wedding ring!!! It was the most perfect moment — with my two magical unicorn humans who brought me to this earth — one that I will NEVER forget.

Then it was time for my first look with Jonathan!! EEEEPPPP!!!

Okay so this is what I had been waiting for, for what felt like forever. This is the moment I MOST LOOKED FORWARD TO ABOUT OUR WHOLE WEDDING! Aside from the ceremony, of course.

Unlike my dad, Jonathan knew zero things about my dress. He didn’t know the shape, the fit, or even the color… I mean he assumed white but YA NEVER KNOW OK!! He literally knew nothing. Every time we spoke about it this entire year, he left the room. He wanted to be SHOCKED. He knew nothing about my hair, makeup, shoes, or the entire vibe I was going for. He was going to be stunned.

I however had seen his tux, but I was so, so excited to see him in it and see my almost husband on our wedding day. I could hardly stand it. He was waiting out by the iconic oak tree at the Ojai Valley Inn with his back to me as I walked down. But first, of course, there were about 15 minutes of, “Wait, where’s Jonathan? We can’t find him!” tag going on between our photographer, videographer, wedding planner, and us. That’s my husband… in a nutshell!!!

Walking up to him was one of the most special moments in the world- I will never forget it. I could see him, but he couldn’t see me!! He had no idea how close I was getting to him when he called out, “Jordan?!” and I replied, “Jonathan!!” from RIGHT behind him.

Then came the moment we had both been waiting for…. I tapped him on the shoulder, he turned around, and took me in. He was ASTONISHED by everything, head to toe. The dress! The hair! The makeup! His bride!!! He had no idea I would pick such a simple dress, and honestly neither did I. I always thought I would go with something super flowy and bohemian, but this was super form fitted and elegant and simple and classic all in one. With buttons and a cute little drape. And a FLOOR LENGTH veil.

We describe Jonathan’s reaction as “convulse-crying.” Which is exactly what it was. He couldn’t catch his breath or even believe what was going on! This moment together was SO special. I twirled around to show him my full look and we took each other in. Then, I whipped out the scrapbook of marriage advice and he REALLY lost it. You can see him crying in these photos… I mean sobbing. It was amazing.

I will NEVERRRR forget out first look and I highly recommend doing one!!!! It is SO SPECIAL and a memory we will keep forever.

THE SCRAPBOOK MOMENT!

Ok next I will get into our pre-ceremony, our CEREMONY (BEST MEMORY OF MY LIIIFEEEE), PARTY, AFTER PARTY, and SUNDAY BRUNCH !!!!! I feel like this post is full of juicy info and I will hit you with round three either tomorrow or the next day. Who is ready?! What questions do you have?!

I will also include all of our VENDORS, wedding planner, etc. in the next post so you have all of that info on hand!! OKAY I wanna hear it all! What do you think!?!?!??! The pics?!?! I AM DYINGGGG and have been all day — we received the photos this morning! And the VIDEOOO ahhh!!

A VERY TBB HOLIDAY GIFT GUIDE FOR HEALTH NUTS! | Simple, Healthy, Affordable!

Hey guys! I wasn’t going to do a gift guide this year because technically I am still on a bit of a life hiatus post-wedding and honeymoon, and have been pouring all of my energy into healing. But the funny thing is… when I pour my energy into myself, I am SO RECHARGED that I want to do & create all of the things!

So if that isn’t inspo to pour into our own cups first… I don’t know what is. I haven’t recorded a podcast episode in months and have only written one or two blog posts this entire season, and dayum — my own cup feels SO FULL. I have been working on me, listening to my intuition and healing my relationship to so many aspects of my life (workaholism, stomach problems, being unable to make decisions without asking a million people for their opinions, the list goes on) and actually feel more tapped in than EVER.

The most exciting thing I am working on is an EBOOK & a 22-Day Reset Program for January 2020, so if you’re not subscribed to the blog, subscribe here to be among the first to hear about it and receive the link when it goes live. I have felt so in the flow and aligned while creating it, I really think and know it’s going to be a deeply special and transformative offering.

On that note, let’s get into the TBB holiday gift guide!

I don’t know about you, but sometimes I get overwhelmed by gift guides because there are SO. MANY. OPTIONS. Like, where to even begin and what to even get and for which person?!?! So this gift guide is curated for the typical TBB reader (a.k.a me, a.k.a you) who is into health, wellness, fitness, spirituality, and self care.

It is also a simple list because, like I said, I didn’t want to crowd it up with a bunch of excess. I hope you find some things in here that excite you or work for other people in your life! So let’s get into it!

I am not getting paid to include any of these brands, but for a bunch of these, you will find my unique discounts and offerings. Some of them (not all) are affiliate commissions, so by purchasing through my link I receive a small percentage & you’re helping to support me/my blog/this small business and I am eternally grateful.

Most of these gift ideas are very affordable and perfect for giving to your girlfriends, family members, other halves, and even to yourself! Everyone deserves some self gifts over the holidays. Near the bottom you will find some bigger items & splurges, so if they’re in your budget this year… great! If not, lots of other options & maybe they’ll inspire you to save for next year!

FOOD & BEVERAGE PRODUCTS //

* PRO TIP- bundle a few of these wellness items together to make a super special wellness goodie basket for your friends and fam!

+ Four Sigmatic adaptogen coffee/matcha/lattes! You can use the code BLONDE for 15% off. Oh… what healthy person in your life doesn’t want to try some adaptogen coffee, hot chocolate, or matcha?! Adaptogens are super-herbs that bring our body back to homeostasis – they work with each body differently, depending on what your imbalances are and what your body needs. Some of my favorite adaptogens are ashwaghanda, eleuthro, and Rhodiola. All of which you can find in Four Sig products!

My favorite Four Sigmatic products are their… adaptogen coffee, chaga mushroom elixir mix, mushroom hot cacao (it’s like a delish, creamy HOT CHOCOLATE!), and their regular mushroom coffee mix. You can find all of my faves on my curated page, here! If you’re going for the Four Sig gifts this year, I recommend including their skincare (it’s amazing) or also getting a BUNDLE! That way you’re giving your loved one a nice curated bundle of things you think they’ll love… and will enhance their health!

+ Liquid I.V. – You can use code BLONDE for 25% off! This is the PERFECT GIFT for your friends who will be sipping on cocktails all holiday season long, or your friend who loves to workout and get their sweat on. Or your friend who travels frequently! Liquid I.V. is my best friend Brandin’s company, and I have been involved with them since the beginning. It is a next level hydration supplement that hydrates you 3x faster than regular water.

I personally love having a LIV in my bag when I travel, exercise, or even when I am just out and about because it helps me combat headaches. I get horrible headaches when I am dehydrated and one stick of LIV (even 1/2 stick, usually) always rescues me from those terrible situations. Use the code BLONDE for a discount, and enjoyyyy! And know that you’re supporting an incredible young entrepreneur and fast-growing young company, a company who also has an incredible giveback mission.

Also… their PASSION FRUIT flavor is life! (They also have new sleep products & new energy products!!)

+ Cured Nutrition CBD – You can use the code BLONDE for a discount! What would a holiday gift guide be without a little CBD?! So, for the record, CBD doesn’t get you high. CBD is a phytocannabinoid found in cannabis plants that has been found to help alleviate anxiety, boost cognition, and help with movement disorders and pain. I LOVE using CBD for joint pain, to help calm my anxious mind, and to help me fall asleep at night.

Cured Nutrition is my faaaavorite CBD brand for so many reasons – one, because their founder is amazing and I had a chance to spend some time getting to know him this year. Two, because it’s simply the best brand I have found on the market so far (and trust me, there are SO MANY right now, it’s kind of insane and can be overwhelming to choose). Products of theirs I love specifically are their MINT TINCTURE, and their hemp-infused max salve for pain (it has shea butter in it and literally smells and feels amazing on the skin… I use it when my hands start to really hurt from some major joint pain I have).

I even got my dad started on it with his arthritis, and it is helping him a lot. So if you have a parent or a friend in your life who suffers from arthritis or pain, get them hooked on the salve!! It’s NEXT LEVEL. & use that code BLONDE for a discount!

+ REBBL! I am so obsessed with REBBL you guys, it’s like massive the obsession. This year they started selling online which is amazing, and you can use the code BLONDE for 15% off! I don’t think it’s weird to give a refrigerated gift (lol) but then again that’s just me – so maybe this would be a perfect gift for your parents or significant other so you can keep it in the fridge until you give it to them!

Some of my favorite products of theirs are their mint chip protein elixir (since it’s also low sugar) and and their new sparkling TONICS! This would be a great gift for someone who appreciates the beauty of adaptogen elixirs, and would also pair well with Four Sigmatic for a full-on adaptogen style gift bundle!

+ Beauty Bar Chocolate! If you have chocolate lovers in your life… THIS IS THE STUFF. We discovered that men and women alike are obsessed with this chocolate, but somehow there’s something special in it that has men really into it. (My dad and Jonathan both barely even like chocolate, and they are both obsessed with Beauty Bar. Not even kidding.)

To keep adding to the adaptogen train (can you tell what I am into?) this would be a great gift (one of their CBD bars, or one of their regular!) to add in with Four Sig, and with REBBL! Or honestly with any/all of these as a fun mix & match!

BOOKS //

Books, books, books! Books are an amazing gift. I don’t know about you, but I love to receive books on holidays more than just about anything else. Whether it be a great coffee table book, a philosophical deep dive, or a fun beach read… I LOVE BOOKS!

You can head to my Amazon shop page for a big list of my current fave books & reads that have changed my life this year — and I honestly recommend any & all of them!

Among the list that are actual top favorites right now that I would highly recommend gifting would be…

+ The Daily Stoic (& The Daily Stoic Journal) by Ryan Holiday — This book is for one of your more deep & philosophical friends, but don’t be worried, it’s still a very easy read when it comes to philosophy. It’s curated so that each day of the year is matched with a quote from one of the ancient Stoics. Stoicism is an Ancient Greek school taught that virtue, acting from the highest good, and living in harmony with nature and with others. If you’re looking for a great way to start your year off on a new and inspired foot (or if anyone in your life is, GO WITH THIS BOOK & the accompanying journal!!!!).

+ Super Attractor by Gabby Bernstein — Gabby is one of my ultimate spiritual teachers and guides. I go to her books and her programs every time I need a boost to tune back into myself and drop the bullshit of negative self-talk and fear-based actions. Her books are also great for friends who are just getting into spirituality, as she writes them from her approachable and very personal experience and shares many intimate details from her own life. She draws on the teachings from A Course in Miracles (another great read, also on my Amazon page, for someone who is ready to go MUCH DEEPER) and from her own teachers like Marianne Williamson, Wayne Dyer & Deepak Chopra. HIGHLY RECOMMEND, and would be great to give to a girlfriend, your mom, etc.! Similarly, her Super Attractor Card Deck (also on my Amazon page), would make SUCH A GOOD GIFT!

+ The Rose That Booms in the Night by Allie Michelle — This poetry collection was written by a dear friend of mine, Allie Michelle. She is so young, and SO WISE. Her poetry is like medicine for my bones. Honestly, each time I open this book it brings me exactly when I need, right when I need it. There are poems in her book about love, loss, growth, evolving, and truly just being human even when being human is the hardest thing to do. HIGHLY RECOMMEND, she is pure magic.

+ Honestly all of the other books on there from Nine Perfect Strangers for your friend who lives juicy fiction (written by the same author who wrote Big Little Lies!), to The Soul of Money (who has heard my dad rave about it on insta and the podcast?!), to the Definitive Book of Human Design, are all some of my top favorites & books that really influenced (or entertained!) my life this year. It would be fun to gift a bundle, and pair it with some skincare or even some CBD for a “wellness night in” gift basket!!!

SPIRITUAL //

A bunch of the books above absolutely fall into the spiritual category, and here are a few more ideas for you…

+ CRYSTALS! My absolute favorite place to shop crystals is Energy Muse, which was founded by the amazing Heather & Timmi who have been staples on TBB Podcast. Not only do I love their crystal gift bundles to give to people, I also love their jewelry! They have beautiful bracelets that come with intention setting exercises that I love gifting to people in my life (you can choose a set of Love, Health, or New Beginnings). I also love gifting their Energy Clearing Kits to my friends and fam that comes along with crystals, sage, and a singing bowl!

+ JOURNALS! My friend Tricia makes these AMAZING journals at Your Joyologist, with the best quotes on them that Jonathan and I are obsessed with. She also sells mugs, tumblers, magnets, and key chains with inspirational quotes on them like, “Fuck The Shoulds, Do the Wants,” and “Everything Is Going My Way.” A simple and easy gift for someone who loves to journal or is looking to get more in tune & inspired on a daily basis.

+ The Wild Unknown Animal Spirit Deck & Guidebook! You can find these at the top of my Amazon shop book page and OMG, you guys. THESE ARE SO FUN! My bridesmaids & I pulled these cards at the beginning and at the end of my bachelorette party in Tulum, and they were SO SPOT ON. The first time we pulled, I was the Golden Egg card which is a spirit card and it spoke to my heart so truly and in such alignment it was just WILD. Then, we pulled them again the morning of my wedding! You can even see them in our wedding video that I shared on Instagram yesterday! HIGHLY recommend these as a gift, along with a journal and a book for a fun bundle, or on their own depending on who you’re gifting to!

+ You can always gift an EXPERIENCE to your friends, like a phone call with a medium, a session with a Reiki master, a sound bath experience, a trip to a kundalini class or yoga class, or a yoga retreat together! The options are endless!! My best friend and I are going to see a medium together for our gifts to each other this year… and I am SO EXCITED.

SKINCARE & SELF CARE //

+ Cocokind skincare! — Okay you guys, my friend Priscilla is such an amazing badass entrepreneur and this wouldn’t be an official gift guide without her products being on here. They have so many new and amazing masks and other things you can peruse, but my personal favorite is and always will be the MATCHA STICK! This highlighter trio set is an amazing makeup set with my personal fave… their chagaglo! So yes, you’re seeing the adaptogens that I love even in makeup on this guide. It’s amazing. Also, their macabeet stick makes a great blush. Highly recommend their products and you know you’re supporting a fantastic and inspiring entrepreneur in the process.

+ CANDLES!! The amazing brand Taja Collection made this incredible custom candles for our wedding that we helped design, and I couldn’t be more in love. They have a bunch of customization options from color, to size, to fragrance, and it’s literally a perfect gift to give to the people you love in your life, with their initials, or an inside joke, or something special between the two of you written on there. Super special and incredible brand!

+ SAUNAS !!! Now we are getting into the more splurgey gifts. I have both a Clearlight sauna & a Sunlighten sauna in our home, and I am OBSESSED. With Clearlight, you can use the code BONDE for $450 off a cabin style sauna that is literally amazing (or any of their products, but I have the one-person cabin style one!), and you can also use the code BLONDE with Sunlighten for $200 off any of their saunas plus free shipping. SWEATING in an infrared sauna is amazing for those of us with chronic illness, or anyone looking to boost their detox routine.

My new ebook will be full of info about infrared saunas & all things detox! Sunlighten also has an extra 10% off of their LumiNUR wand until the 17th, which is a personal professional-strength LED wand! Code BLONDE will get you an additional discount. The LumiNIR helps repair your cells, fight aging, wards of acne, and helps cell growth… and is $249 vs. a pricier sauna which I feel is perfect for a gift for someone you’re really close to.

Alright guys, that’s what I’ve got for ya for now! I said I would keep it simple so that’s what I am trying to do, even though you know me – I could go on forever! As you can see here, there are no clothes, bags, shoes, etc. on this gift guide. This is a guide for the HEALTHY GAL or GUY in your life or someone who you are looking to inspire to get more into the health & wellness world… I saved the super woo-woo stuff for another day. And keep an eye out for my ebook launching EARLY 2020 for a VERY SPECIAL RESET PROGRAMMMM that can serve as a gift to YOURSELF or someone you love this holiday season.. eeep!

Let me know below what/if anything here strikes your fancy! And tag me on Insta if you order it so I can see! YAYYY!

Preparing My Health for Our Wedding & How I Felt on Our Wedding Day

HEY GUYS! I have missed you guys so much – I hope everyone had the best November, Thanksgiving, holiday weekend… All. Of. It. I have been enjoying the major downtime I’ve been taking during and after our wedding, during our honeymoon in Bali, and readjusting to life (and this time zone lol) here in LA as an ALBRECHT.

There are really not even enough words to explain or express to you how much my heart and my body have needed this time off. Oh boy. My body is sinking into a deep rest, now that the wedding and honeymoon are over. In the last week alone I have been uncovering deep truths about myself, my health, and this entire journey, going deeper into myself than I ever have before. It has been a LOT.

The quietness in LA around the holidays is my favorite. There is nothing quite like it. It’s been so peaceful and so healthy for both Jonathan & I after such a crazy and jam-packed (and magical) month. I am looking forward to bringing that peace with me into the rest of the month and through the end of the year… and the end of the decade, I mean WOW.

*All photos in this post were taken by the amazing Tynan Daniels & Tony Modugno of Via Imagery. My dear friends who captured our wedding & I couldn’t possibly recommend them more!!!

My Health on Our Wedding Weekend !!

I have so much to say and will be blogging away this month, back to somewhat of a more regular schedule while still deeply honoring my body and what my soul needs in order to continue healing. Today I wanted to pop on to share my first wedding post, which trust me will be the first of many!!!

I want to share ALL of the wedding details & goodness with you, and I will. We are going to be getting our photos back this week, and getting the preview of our video in the next few days too. I am elated to see it all and relive every moment of that magical day and weekend.

Given that I have been so open in sharing my healing journey with you guys, I thought it would be fitting to write first about how healthy, vibrant, energized, and amazing I felt throughout our whole wedding weekend.

That’s probably the most-asked question I’ve gotten on Instagram and email, “HOW DID YOU FEEL ON YOUR WEDDING DAY?!?!” especially because I know there are so many other chronic illness warriors out there dealing with the anxiety-inducing day-to-day question of… how will I feel on a day I really, really want & need to feel good?

To sum it up and not keep you guessing, the answer is… I felt INCREDIBLE. I felt healthier & more alive than I have in as long as I can remember. And I attribute that to a lot of different factors. But first I will back up & tell you how I was feeling leading up to the wedding and the many emotions and steps it took to get there…

The Week Of the Wedding //

The week before the wedding, I have to be honest, was one of the hardest and most physically and mentally challenging weeks of my entire Lyme journey. We know this, that STRESS does not help our case at all when we are suffering from any illness. And no matter how hard I tried, no matter what I did, no matter how many rituals and letting go exercises, no matter how many meditations and yoga classes and healing treatments I dove into – the stress was REAL. It was there, and it was thriving.

Any bride knows this to be true. Any bride with a chronic illness that leaves you wondering if you’ll potentially be completely debilitated on your wedding day knows this stress on a whole other level. But truly, all brides know the stress. All of the last minute details- the welcome signs, the decor, the flowers, the rugs, the hair, the makeup, the dress alterations, the gift bags, the last minute cancellations, the cake, the vendors, coordinating the bridal party and every single guest, curating an amazing experience, finishing your vows, preparing for the biggest party you’ll ever throw, preparing for becoming one with the love of your life, making sure you don’t forget to bring anything important — it’s all GOOD stuff, but it’s stressful nonetheless. It’s a lot.

And you want it all to go perfectly! I was also a mess because I was riding an unbelievably wavy rollercoaster of emotions. One minute I would convince myself I was going to feel amazing no matter what, the next minute I would feel a bad symptom and come crashing down from that fantasy of feeling amazing and worry that I wouldn’t be able to enjoy a single second.

Anyway, the emotions were on overdrive. To ensure that I was doing everything I possibly could to feel my best and eliminate my Lyme symptoms, these are some of the thing I did that week:

+ I got regular micro current facials with my dear friend Sadie Adams (at Take Care Body Mind in Venice) that are like mini shamanic healing sessions, I highly recommend them. One week before the wedding Sadie could sense that my body had HAD it, that we didn’t need to go deep with the micro current, and she mostly did subtle body healing energy work on me – it was so needed.

+ One week before the wedding I got an incredible lymphatic drainage facial with gua sha and this amazing green goddess mask with the lovely goddess Elizabeth of Honest Rituals. This was an epic, juicy, amazing experience that also de-puffed my face and deeply recharged me. I was able to meditate on the table and really get into the wedding mindset. It was also the perfect activity to do the weekend before my wedding because I was not feeling going out & being social- I wanted to get in tune with myself and really calm my nerves and feel centered.

+ The Monday before our wedding I did a ketamine IV at my doctor’s office (Pro Health Group in Beverly Hills). I had been doing them on a semi-regular basis for Lyme symptoms and to rewire the brain to really accept healing. To learn more about ketamine-assisted healing, check out this TBB Podcast episode with Dr. Mike Dow on the subconscious mind. Ketamine took me to a very, very heart-centered place and I am a huge fan of it overall, but that week it left me feeling very raw.

It left me feeling a bit too open, if I’m being honest. Jonathan drove me to the beach after the treatment where I sunk my feet in the sand and truly just sobbed- I was overcome with so many emotions. If you need something to wake you back up and tap you in deeply to yourself, I recommend it. But I think I was already to awake and so tapped in that it just brought me in SO MUCH, I actually needed something a bit more stabilizing and grounding. Just trying to be as honest with you guys as possible. It was hard… I didn’t know why I felt so down when I wanted to just feel so excited and so “up.”

+ The next day, Tuesday, I woke up feeling like I had the flu, strep throat, the whole works. Was this induced mentally because I was getting SO NERVOUS about not feeling well for the wedding? Probably partially, yes. I also believe my body was physically having a really hard time that week with all of the stress piled so high. I had my nurse Amber come over to do a High Dose Vitamin C IV, a double dose of IV Stem Cells, & Exosomes. Stem cells and exosomes are incredible for killing sick cells in the body and multiplying brand new, healthy cells from a newborn baby. It activates the immune system and sometimes leaves you feeling a bit worse before you feel better, but I have always had good experiences with them. (I did stem cells before my bachelorette, my bridal shower, etc. and always felt amazing for a couple weeks afterward).

+ A big one, huge one here & so simple (and FREE) is that I said NO to anything that didn’t feel right to me. I didn’t go out, I didn’t celebrate Halloween, I didn’t do a lot of things that I had originally committed to because I know myself and I wanted to save my full energy for the wedding. I do think it’s important to put yourself out there and do things you may not always initially want to do because community can be so healing- but this week I knew, I needed to draw inward.

+ I did hot yoga as much as I could to CLEAR MY MIND and also get my body moving, and seriously this was an absolute game changer for me. Highly recommend to any bride! I did it every day for several weeks except for the days I had low energy and needed to rest. My mind needed it more than my body, it is my medicine.

+ I had been getting regular colonics for about a year which has helped massively with digestion, clearing out toxins, and honestly is a meditation for me every time I’m on the table.

+ Wednesday was spent getting our last minute stuff together, getting organic spray tans & nails (nails at Olive & June- non toxic and THE BEST), and then Thursday we headed to Ojai!

+ Thursday morning I woke up and realized I had full-blown, massively painful hemorrhoids. I have had hemorrhoids for a while (you can read about my healing tips here), and of course the morning we were leaving for our wedding they flared in a big way. When they get painful, I can’t even walk. So thank GOD for the best colorectal doctor in town, because he squeezed me in that morning for some shots (they really help), then we were on our way.

+ That morning I was a bundle of stress. Thinking “Why the f**k am I waking up with hemorrhoids? I felt like I had the flu less than 24 hours ago. Am I really going to be okay so soon for something so big and important?”

+ But honestly the second we got to Ojai I felt differently instantaneously- I felt amazing. Like a huge breath of fresh air. We were there, everything was set, it was time to CELEBRATE, ENJOY, and LIVE IN THE MOMENT. Thursday night we had dinner with a bunch of our best friends who came to Ojai early to celebrate with us, and honestly from there on out I felt amazing.

+ I know it might sound like a big jump- to feel so shitty and so scared and then feel so good. I believe part of it was the car ride to Ojai… two-ish hours with Jonathan to really reflect and get excited about what we were stepping into. We blasted gangster rap and made rapping videos (our fave) and got into a really good headspace. This is yet another reason for me to believe that healing is MENTAL. Once I let my stress go, and allowed myself to really be in “what is” vs. worrying about anything that wasn’t in the present moment, I started to feel so much better, and so much more excited,

+ Later in the night Thursday after dinner we had our friends, my parents, and my parents’ friends back to our bridal suite to hang out, tell stories, drink wine, and toast to the weekend ahead. I was buzzing! Not even tired! We were up late and I still woke up early feeling great. It’s such a great testament to the power of mindset, being surrounded by love, and doing the work beforehand to ensure I would feel good.

The Wedding Weekend //

In short, I felt SO GOOD, so energized, so vibrant, so in tune, so ME from the second we arrived on Thursday until we left on Monday afternoon – and even after that. I didn’t start feeling my usual Lyme symptoms again until one of our first few days in Bali on our honeymoon.

Everyone told me leading up to the wedding, “Don’t worry about your health, you will feel amazing no matter what. It’s impossible not to feel great on your wedding day.” And every single time someone said that I thought, “…well, then you haven’t met my symptoms. They’re the most unpredictable in the world.”

But the truth is – they were right. And if I could go back in time and save myself 14 months of worry and stress and panic about not feeling well enough on my wedding day, I would. At the time I knew it was unnecessary stress (all stress is unnecessary) but I couldn’t really put a stop to it no matter how hard I tried. The weeks leading up to the wedding were full of the most stress I have experienced in a long time, and while there were so many aspects of planning that I enjoyed- I do wish I could go back in time and reverse the STRESS that I inflicted on myself! It was not necessary or needed at all.

Beyond what I did the week of the wedding, I did so much in the last year to prepare for the wedding health-wise. From water fasts to stays at We Care Spa in Palm Springs (full body healing experiences), from ayahuasca retreats to weekly Lyme treatments to daily herbs and supplements and twice-weekly IVs. I know I’ve had my healing routine on lock.

So I am allowing myself to look at it in a new way now, a different way. That maybe it wasn’t just the amazing energy of my friends, family and loved ones on our wedding day that made me feel so good and so healthy – maybe the truth is (definitely the truth is), I AM HEALING. I am reaching a new level and new milestones. The painful past is in the painful past.

One of my huge intentions with getting married was to let this be a clean slate, a fresh page to begin life on together. Jonathan signed up for forever with me at a very traumatic and difficult time for my body – and he has stayed, and persisted, and been my biggest supporter and believer during this entire journey. Getting married is such a big step – I knew I wanted it to be a step toward health for me and for us. To really energetically and physically LEAVE the past where it belongs.

To speak of the wedding weekend specifically, although I have so many posts I will be sharing to break the whole thing down and share it with you guys, I will say that I was riding a bubble of love energy the entire time. It was truly impossible to feel sick, because everywhere I turned were my best friends, my family, my love, his family (my new family), and the gorgeous nature and surroundings of Ojai.

My bridal party played a huge role in this. It makes me cry to even write about it, but they are everything to me. They showed up big time- supporting, loving, extending their energy in every single way they could and they made the weekend truly PERFECT for me. When you get married, you’re really spending more of the weekend with your friends than you are your significant other- until the ceremony of course. And they made it just perfect for me, I couldn’t have asked for more love and support.

MY LOVES! I’M CRYINNNNGG!

From our tradition of spirit animal cards (we love this deck!) while getting ready to being the last on the dance floor at the end of the night- they just get me. And I really, truly believe having people around you who love, support, and GET you on the deepest of levels, is the most healing thing we could ever ask for. Everything I needed, they were there- to help me scrapbook for Jonathan, paste my vows into my vow notebook (don’t you all know I’m a very last minute person? Lol), make sure I was eating enough, even do reiki on me (KELSEY!!!), let me pet them as if they were Huddy (DANIELLE!!), and make me feel so special, so seen, so loved, in every single way.

My mom of course played a huge role in all of this too. She was with us the whole day getting ready, there for every special moment, helped keep things on track and enjoyed every second right along with me. She was an honorary Maid of Honor, for SURE. She is truly one of my best friends in the universe. And my dad, WALKING ME DOWN THE AISLE and our special moments beforehand. Oh my god, I cannot wait to share more of these moments with you guys.

And then there was my love- Jonathan. We slept separately on Friday night as goes the tradition of not seeing each other until our first look on Saturday, but he came back to our bridal suite with me Friday to tuck me in and lay with me until I fell asleep. In true Jordan fashion I wanted to discuss the entire rehearsal dinner- “What was your favorite speech? Who was your favorite person to talk to? Who surprised you the most?!” on and on- and he is always up for all of it. He is my person. My everything.

Then when we had our first look, OH MY GOD YOU GUYS… I CANNOT WAIT TO SHARE!!!!!

The overarching words to describe how I was feeling the whole weekend probably came from my mom, when she said on Sunday, “You’ve seemed drunk in the best way since yesterday and you still seem drunk!” And what she meant was, DRUNK on LIFE. I don’t drink alcohol anymore but I have never felt so high on life itself.

Everywhere I turned were more people I loved. I danced like crazy the entire night of our wedding, and even after the afterparty ended. I was bouncing off the walls, with enough energy and then some to spend with every person I had the chance to connect to and dance with at our wedding.

Every ache, pain, and symptom I’ve had for the last year magically disappeared for a few short days. Maybe it was my angels, maybe it was the prep I did beforehand, but I’m quite certain it was mostly the love that surrounded me from all angles the entire weekend and afterward.

It had a lot to do with how much I put into feeling well and healing this year, yes, but it also had so much to do with living in the MOMENT. I have been studying Zen Buddhism and Stoicism for the entire month of November and I can confidently say- when you live in the present moment, there is no such thing as pain. This is coming from someone with significant, hellacious physical pain. And I believe this to be so true- when you live in the present moment, there IS only the present moment.

The food I ate (thank you GoMacro for being my go-to the entire weekend), not drinking alcohol, sleeping as much as I could, the high dose vitamin C I got that week, etc. all significantly improved how I felt on a cellular level- for my specific body. But beyond that, it was the energy. Everywhere I turned, were more people I love so deeply. Friends came from Australia and from MONACO (Jenna!!!), from the Bay Area, from NYC, and from LA- anywhere our guests traveled from, we were honored and so full of magical love to have them there.

THAT is what heals.

THAT is what creates happy moments and memories.

THAT is what ensured my radical health and vibrancy the entire weekend.

THAT is what I now live for, and will be aspiring to cultivate in my daily life moving forward.

I know you can’t recreate the love of a wedding, but you certainly CAN fill your days with the people you love, doing things you love, living in the present moment.

Not to mention because I can’t stop writing, reading Jonathan my vows and hearing his vows were truly some of the best moments of my entire life. Many of our guests said the same to me- and that really sets my soul ablaze. How could I not feel amazing?!?!?

My love reading me his vows – one of the most special moments of my life.

SO MUCH MORE TO SAY! LIKE BEYOND!

I feel like this is probably a good place to put a pin in it. I want to tell you all about the Friday night rehearsal dinner (and getting roasted by our bridal party!!!), the afterparty Friday night (so much fun- yes I had the energy for it, it was amazing), the whole day Saturday, the afterparty, then our brunch on Sunday!

& yes, there is a Bali guide coming too…

So! I’d love to hear your questions and your own wedding experiences. Share with me below! Ask me anything. I’ll be here to answer! xx

Best. Night. Of. Our. Lives.

The Importance of Going Inward to Heal

Hey guys! I am going to keep this short and sweet for a couple reasons – one, because I am GETTING MARRIED THIS WEEK! What?! And two, because I have been tech detoxing for several days now and I just wanted to pop on for a quick hello…

I have been getting so many intuitive messages lately to slow down, turn inward, use technology (and especially social media) more sparingly, and the message was loud & clear that until I do those things my body will not be truly relaxed or in a true healing state.

In fact last week three of my trusted healers and dear friends Sadie Adams, Jessie De Lowe, and Kelsey Patel (who is officiating our wedding!!=) shared the same message with me each in their own words. Turn inward. Drop the pressure. Where does the pressure come from? Be in your energy. Drop the people pleasing. Just be. The more you can just be, and relax and go inside, and be GROUNDED, the better you will serve your community and your loved ones.

And my most trusted healer of them all, HUDSON, said the exact same thing to me two weeks ago when we spoke our animal communicator Miranda (who you can listen to on TBB Podcast here & here). He said that until I go truly inward, I cannot heal. And that although I have slowed my life down significantly, I am still using my energy very, very inefficiently.

He said so much more too (which I cannot wait to share with you guys soon- Huddy podcast episode round 3, anyone?!) but the main gist was that my energy is all over the place and it’s time to bring it back to me.

The key word for this time in my life is inward.

Which is so interesting and perhaps even more needed than ever with our wedding coming up this weekend with 201 guests (not even kidding- my NUMBER!), joining my life in union with my best friend, traveling to Bali for the remainder of November on our honeymoon, and really stepping into this new initiation as a wife.

The truth is being a wife is so different than being a girlfriend, or a fiancé. I am realizing that now. I know I am not there yet, but I am learning the lessons about stepping into this new role. Being married is a spiritual initiation, it’s a binding commitment that agrees what was once yours is now both of yours. It is stepping into a “we” vs. an “I.” And there is so much in my universe coming up for me around that. These last few weeks especially.

For example my first love who suffers from many severe addictions, who I have spoken about very openly over the years (who you can hear all about in my first ever solo episode, Episode 32 of TBB Podcast- On Trauma) reached out to me and we had some very hard, but very needed conversations.

Not to mention my health is reaching a new level of HEALING, and I am so grateful, and I am beginning to reframe my mind from being a sick person to being a healthy person. Even if I have a long way to go. The universe is bringing a lot of things into my ether to show me that that is the truth.

I have realized over the last several weeks that social media, technology, and being “available” are all addictions of mine. Tech is highly addictive- and when your work, play, and livelihood are ALL RIGHT THERE on just a few little apps, it’s hard not to be addicted. Add my addictive personality on top of that and it’s just a huge addiction.

I took a nice long break from Instagram this weekend (I even deleted it from my phone for a few days) and I cannot even begin to tell you how healing it was. It’s like for the first time in 6.5 years I was actually taking REAL “time off.” My thoughts were more clear, I was so much more present for Jonathan & Hud, and I was able to make decisions with much more ease. My mind wasn’t so clouded & confused with other people’s info & opinions flooding my mind.

I know I have taken small breaks before and I have gone a week or two here and there without social media (like during my Ayurvedic Panchakarmas), but something about this experience was different- even though it only lasted a few days. This was healing in a new way. Especially after the conversations I had last week with my friends/healers about approaching life differently as I enter this new phase of my life… the time to myself was so profound. Maybe also because I enjoyed it SO MUCH, whereas in the past I was very eager to get back on the apps after some downtime.

On Saturday night I went to sleep at 8:30pm and didn’t wake up until 11:30am the next day. My body NEEDED that. My mind and my soul needed that. If you read TBB regularly, you know my belief is that we astral travel in our dreams, and I feel like my soul got a deep cleansing and healing during that particular night. And not to mention it was on the Scorpio new moon, which is all about cleansing/detoxing/letting go/being true to oneself.

Now with our wedding coming up in just a few days, I feel clear. Last week I was a bundle of nerves. You can read all about it on my last post! But this week I feel like a new woman. I feel clear, calm, centered, and like I can breathe again. I have all of my treatments & appointment in order this week- IV ketamine, lymphatic massage, IV stem cells and exosomes, facials, nails, organic spray tan… then BOOM, we head to Ojai on Thursday morning.

Also, side note, pray for our neighborhood and surrounding neighborhoods in LA right now because we are very close to being evacuated for fires near the Getty. Our neighbors in Mandeville Canyon, Temescal, etc. right up the road have all had mandatory evacuations and we are waiting on the word over here. I am manifesting no evacuations, but we are making some arrangements just in case.

Yet even with that, I feel calm. Nothing can rock this boat after taking some serious downtime this weekend which I do feel was more needed than ever. Heading into this new phase of my life, as a wife (!!!!!), and as a HEALING, HEALTHY human, I plan to do things a lot differently.

New boundaries with social media will be a big part of that. New boundaries with my podcast will be a huge part of that as well. And reframing this idea of being a people pleaser who is terrified of letting people down, that will be a big part of it too. Because when I am terrified of letting people down all the time, I really just let myself down time and again. No more of that.

I want to thank my love for being so supportive of me during this time, and my family & all of my friends. I have been doing a lot of soul searching these last few weeks- beginning with a beautiful DMT ceremony at my bachelorette party in Tulum. I have been spending a lot of alone time and down time for the whole month now preparing for our wedding weekend and that is what I need- I know everyone prepares differently.

I am just so grateful for those in my life who love me for WHO I AM. Cultivating that type of community is so healing and I am just so grateful for it.

Being present, spending lots of time in nature, resting, reading so many good books right now (you can find them on my Amazon shop page!!) & just flowing through life are all helping so much.

How was everyone else’s weekend? What are your thoughts on digital detoxing / going inward? Would love to hear, and sending you all love!!

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